guilty ;(

i feel guilty...

firstly, for forsaking my chem and bio in favour of the Scav Hunt parties. I must admit I had an awesome time... and granted I needed a break after those hellish midterms and quizzes, but I'd planned Six Flags on Sat and pia on Fri... so I guess it's more of breaking a promise to myself. That just added to the kong1 xu1 you feel after a party y'know?

secondly for not taking better care of my health... been sleeping late due to above, procrastination and general inefficiency. plus ever since missing my last (and second) scheduled appt at DCAM, i have been studiously avoiding pursuing the matter... keep telling myself there's no point, i'm going home soon... now that home is really just a month away i'm worrying abt what to tell my doc.

again, due to the first item, for making a promise to someone i couldn't keep... haiyaaah. feel like such a hypocrite [see next item].

and finally, for not being able to forgive someone. i need to kan4 kai1 a bit (ok, a lot) and open my puny selfish heart... not to mention cut down on spiteful comments.

thank You God for grace! i'm GBHFDL... made righteous in Your name... and awaiting that breakthrough =)