are you laughing at me??

When I look up into the night sky (I get really nice views from my gym's rooftop pool), I sometimes feel like God is up there somewhere laughing at me. Not in a sick tyrannical way, but rather in a bemused fatherly fashion... probably because He's amused at all the things I'm trying to do here in my life, all my mighty plans to do this, help that, start this, try that. And then He'll be laughing even harder at my overly-self-conscious state ><

Looking back, some of the things I was surest about have never come to pass. And other things I never expected have just taken me by surprise... When really nothing should, right? If we know that God works all things out for our good.

Need to STOP THINKING so much, let God, and let go...