seasons of rehearsals

Am getting a bit worn out running from voice lesson to choir prac to a cappella prac to musical rehearsal... and yet as a colleague reminded me, THIS is LIFE. And not the stuff we do in the office. THAT is only what we do to sustain LIFE. And I'm definitely enjoying learning and growing as an actor/ singer though (at least, I hope I'm growing :).  

All the increasing responsibilities of life (not just pursuing my hobbies) make me lose myself sometimes though. I begin to wonder what's the real me, not a subordinate, colleague, member, leader, or SOME role... who would I be if my soul were hanging out on its own? Would my friends and family recognise me?

Then I catch myself and remember I can be happy just as I am, even if it's just a (somewhat confused) child of God. And to give myself grace for all the times I feel I came up short, didn't fulfil that certain self-image constructed in my pride, wasn't as kind/quick/generous/awesome as I would like to be.

He's showing me new levels of grace every day :)