bleah.
Hba1c's up a bit... nothing much to do other than stabilise my fluctuating readings (wait isn't that i've been trying to do all along?? sigh) Get the feeling my doc isn't really interested in me. What a diff from the Eastwood GP, who's a wonderful listener, or the one who just a few days ago gave me a flu jab and helpfully recommended a meningitis vaccination ("You could die from brain inflammation!") too (He had one of those creative prodikeys things and was playing "Yellow Bird" after i left!)... I wonder if the difference in indifference is due to the age gap? or do all docs become jaded and less passionate over the years? wonder what would've happened if i'd taken med instead.
What a waste of a driving test! My circuit was perfect, I was so proud cos I managed nice parkings in the heavy rain and even my dreaded slope. But just as i was turning out the tester said "overtake" so i happily changed lanes... only was too late changing back and crossed the bleeping double white lines. $%^&*( it! After he said "Immediate failure" i was too rattled to remember to check my blindspots on the road... not tt it mattered ya. Walking out of the centre frantically trying to reach my mum for a lift, i felt like the whole world knew I'd failed... in the end hunched down in a bus trying to look normal, trying not to screw up my face and bawl.
Not very used to failure, am I?
Ah well I'm over it liao... thanks to my nice family and friends who offered nothing but comforting words (instead of pointing out I was very inexperienced to begin with) and lots of Aero chocolate *oops*. spent the evening sorting out my jumble of stuff (bought at assorted times for "when i go to chicago") and making long pack lists! getting organised, finally.
my mum's convinced not to bring 3 mths worth of contact lens solution ("You think you'll have time to wear? you don't even wear them now!"), an awesome mirror (made by my choir juniors) and various momentos... but she's not getting to my favourite duck Daphne. OR my baby pillow *sinistersnarl*
HEBREWS 11:6 NKJ
But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
You may be working yourself to a frazzle trying to be perfect so you can please God.
You may have tried so hard and become so frustrated that you are about ready to give up. Well, maybe you should quit trying to be perfect on your own -- because none of us will ever be perfect through our own efforts, anyway.
God knows you are human. He does not expect perfection out of you. If you were perfect you would not even need a Saviour.
God loves you and accepts you because He made you. And He is able to make you into what He desires for you to be -- if you will trust Him and allow Him to work in you.
God wants you to trust Him. He wants your love and respect. He has certainly earned it and deserves it. Don't let the devil keep you from giving to God what He really desires: your love and faith.
What does God desire from you? Not perfect performance -- but total trust. God wants you to believe that He is good -- a rewarder!
Amen! Thank You Abba that your love for me doesn't rise and fall with my performance... I'll rest in your love, and let you work your will in me!
What a waste of a driving test! My circuit was perfect, I was so proud cos I managed nice parkings in the heavy rain and even my dreaded slope. But just as i was turning out the tester said "overtake" so i happily changed lanes... only was too late changing back and crossed the bleeping double white lines. $%^&*( it! After he said "Immediate failure" i was too rattled to remember to check my blindspots on the road... not tt it mattered ya. Walking out of the centre frantically trying to reach my mum for a lift, i felt like the whole world knew I'd failed... in the end hunched down in a bus trying to look normal, trying not to screw up my face and bawl.
Not very used to failure, am I?
Ah well I'm over it liao... thanks to my nice family and friends who offered nothing but comforting words (instead of pointing out I was very inexperienced to begin with) and lots of Aero chocolate *oops*. spent the evening sorting out my jumble of stuff (bought at assorted times for "when i go to chicago") and making long pack lists! getting organised, finally.
my mum's convinced not to bring 3 mths worth of contact lens solution ("You think you'll have time to wear? you don't even wear them now!"), an awesome mirror (made by my choir juniors) and various momentos... but she's not getting to my favourite duck Daphne. OR my baby pillow *sinistersnarl*
HEBREWS 11:6 NKJ
But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.
You may be working yourself to a frazzle trying to be perfect so you can please God.
You may have tried so hard and become so frustrated that you are about ready to give up. Well, maybe you should quit trying to be perfect on your own -- because none of us will ever be perfect through our own efforts, anyway.
God knows you are human. He does not expect perfection out of you. If you were perfect you would not even need a Saviour.
God loves you and accepts you because He made you. And He is able to make you into what He desires for you to be -- if you will trust Him and allow Him to work in you.
God wants you to trust Him. He wants your love and respect. He has certainly earned it and deserves it. Don't let the devil keep you from giving to God what He really desires: your love and faith.
What does God desire from you? Not perfect performance -- but total trust. God wants you to believe that He is good -- a rewarder!
Amen! Thank You Abba that your love for me doesn't rise and fall with my performance... I'll rest in your love, and let you work your will in me!
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